Suck it up cupcake!

Long Time no see. At least that's what it feels like.

Well here I am, almost two weeks later, back to writing in my blog. Still unsure of what to blog about, I haven't been feeling very passionate about anything. I've been in a bit of a zombie mode you could say. Whether at work or at home, I just don't speak with anyone about much. The only signs of life I seem to give off are minor hindrances of sarcasm that reveal my anger.

You could say I'm in a bit of a funk, and how ironic it is that earlier in the summer I wrote blog posts about how to get out of a funk. Perhaps I should follow my own accord and try to burn off this anger and wild energy I've been putting out. If only there was some way to put a pause on one's lifestyle to take some time and figure out what is truly going on.

But alas, time goes on with or without you. And as the words of a fellow co-worker echo through my head as the words, "SUCK IT UP CUPCAKE" seem to shatter my every thought when I find myself pissing and moaning about the small ignorant shit that seem to partially incapacitate me from time to time.

The lackluster amount of sleep I get and double shifts seem to have impaled my social life for now. While my fellow 21 year olds are making meager amounts of money, but somehow continuing to party like rockstars, I find myself in zombie mode consistently with such a deprived sense of passion to drive me to do anything.

Woof. And so the words of an Australian co-worker at a skydiving facility will forever kick me in the ass as I pass on the message to you, and only for you just to say, "Suck it up Cupcake."

Sitfly... my next hill to climb.

Click on the link, it's the next big advancement in skydiving I'm looking to do once I get to 100 jumps. For now I think I'll just watch and be jealous. It's called Sit flying and you go like 200 mph. Sick.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=cLHDGRIsU8I

Tireless Efforts

Time flys by when your having fun, but what about when your stressed out? 

Time does run by quite fast when your stressed out believe it or not. Whether it's work stress, or relationship stress, any number of preceding factors and combinations have now led me to believe that time goes by way way faster when your stressed out. In fact it seems to go by the quickest. Now it's not necessarily the best way to make time go by fast, ( No one want's to be stressed out all the time) but just looking back, my summer has gone by extremely fast because I've mixed in bits of fun with the amount of stress and working everyday. 

Blogging has become an essential part for me to help stabilize within the stress. It's allowed me to reflect on things I've done over the past couple days and really slow down. By writing about events of categories of things that have occupied my mind over the few days in between my blog posts I help clear up some space in my head. Before I'd find myself going to the gym to sweat out the stress from my very pores just to feel some sort of relief. While my schedule in the mean time has taken a dip in the availability department, I feel as if writing (not only for me) but for anyone can be an excellent way to slow down and capture what exactly it is that's filling up your brain bucket. 

Quick update: I've been at 58 skydives for close to a week with no advancement of getting to 100 before I go back to school. I now have 30 days to make 42 skydives and get to my first milestone in my skydiving career.  

I've still got to pay for my school bill ( $2,300 ) and buy a few things such as a parking pass for school and buy books. Woof. I probably should have stuck to the motto of, 'Work smarter, not harder' to help me make more cash this summer. Eh whatever, it's all part of those tireless efforts we all strive to achieve. 

Offer to write for Blue Skies Mag.

I just got a twitter message today asking if I wanted to submit articles for publishing for Blue Skies Mag. This is big news. Here's the letter I sent to the editor asking what she wants for articles. Check out their website in the meantime. www.blueskiesmag.com . Hopefully this turns out to be the incredible opportunity I've been hoping for, all I have to do is write some kick ass articles about skydiving stuff. Sounds easy enough right? Wouldn't be too hard if I had more than a year and a half in the sport. Yikes, guess it's time to brush up on my skydiving history and miscellaneous info...Here's what I wrote to the editor.


Hello Lara, 

                         I got a message from Kolla today via twitter about contributing to Blue Skies Mag. I was beyond stoked to read that message and I'd love to submit articles for print. I'm a newly licensed jumper with only a year and a half in the sport with 53 jumps currently and I'm in my second year working at Skydive New England up in Lebanon, Maine. Also I'm a journalism major at Keene State College in New Hampshire, with one more year to go and my goals are to travel, write, chuck tandems as soon as possible and continue on with my sarcasm as I traverse the world. Now, I understand writing for magazines is a bit different than writing for newspapers and such so I figured I'd ask what it is your exactly looking for. I read the contribute aspects page on the Blue Skies Mag website. But in terms of physical stories I figured going with what I know (manifest stuff and new jumper stuff, and other miscellaneous stories from DZ's) would be a great way to start. Also, my good friends named Kyle Jervis and Harry Parker from SNE take amazing photographs and I figured with their help we could give Blue Skies mag an incredible showing from the North East for quite some time. Obviously payment is nothing we're concerned about, as it would be an honor to write for Blue Skies. If you'd like to just shoot me an e-mail back regarding more specifics of what you're looking for, I'd be happy to start hitting you with some articles by the end of the week! Thanks again for this awesome opportunity! - Cam King @ Skydive New England. (A-060620)

Life works in mysterious ways.

Life is crazy, so stop worrying so god damn much. Sincerely, your author. - Cam King

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Overcommitting yourself is a lot like quick sand.

So I find myself typing here more than a week after my latest blog post. It's not that there haven't been any interesting things to blog about, certainly the American debt ceiling, and 4th of July parties are just mere crests in the sea of epic things that have been going on.

Something that I've been thinking more and more about is a persons commitment to something. Whether it be an activity or hobby of interest, commitment always comes into it before the passion fueled for that recreation. With the whole idea of commitment I can't help but also think about how easy it is to become over committed. It's super easy to just sign up for too much. Something that I am afraid I've fallen victim too.

In my efforts to list off the activities and interests and hobbies, and other assorted tasks that I am currently signed up for, I feel this overwhelming feeling of tension. It's a sort of tension where I am striving for more, pulling for more, but am not getting the energy and attention I need to fully succeed in the areas I'm set up in. And it's extremely frustrating because once somebody develops passion for a multitude of things, it becomes very difficult to let those interests go.

Now, I understand I am only but a fraction of the population whose lives are probably filled with over commitment, but I urge you here to take a step back and wonder if the activities you are pursuing, (interests, hobbies, or whatever time consuming activities that may be) are actually taking away from your inner drive. Some people do well having several main plugs into their inner drive, while others can deal with hundreds of smaller habits. Whatever the case is, if you feel you are over committed, just remember you can always change to suit your best needs and wants.